A full-blown circle,
because here I am again.
Looking at you through a glass full of dread.
This other love,
he loves me so.
Can’t you see? There’s no where else
I’d rather go.
He is my love,
He sweeps me up from broken water,
through a kaleidoscope I’ve looked,
The “whys” I saw and the “what if I hadn’t”.
I see the colors,
the memories of amazement.
Pure unadulterated memories…
but then clouded by smog.
I remember why.
I gasp for air; my new love pulls me out.
The water is gone from my mouth.
The sweet incandescent taste of it.
The looks of the air is clearer.
The lines are not smudged anymore and
I see you. The vibrancy of you. You smile at me
and I see truth.
I see you.
I see me.
“I can’t go back there!” I cry..
“Please, no more.”
The old love left a burn on my heart.
Bruised, tattered, violated, remorseful,
over a love like him.
Stop pricking my heart with pained remembrance.
Hold me tight
Look into my eyes,
see that I’ve changed.
It’s me, just me.
I’ve always been me..
But he brought out the worst in me.
Forget the me that went with his plans.
Forget that I was there with him.
I’m sorry I will hurt you
By telling you the things I’ve done.
I’m ashamed, sorrowful, alone,
Don’t let me stand alone,
I’ll fall back in the water.